azmie  nini |
     i miss home so bad.
please...
can i go home this february?
please...
i'll do whatever you want me to do.
but please...
let me go home for a little while.
I REALLY WANNA GO HOME.
i miss you guys.
i miss abah & mummy.
i miss ayie.
i miss kak ab,abang,cencen and kikim.
please abah,mummy...
let me go home this winter.
i'm down on bended knee..kneeling for this.
please...let me go home...
i love you guys so much.
i miss you guys a lot.
please...please...please
i wanna go home.
Labels: Fallen Angel
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azmie nini |
sometimes,it's so hard to agree with the fact that everything changes with time.
seriously,it's hard.
time is like a manifestation that devours everything on it's path.
the thing i hate the most about time is it ages you.
it makes you older.
it consumes the youth you've been trying to subside.
the thing about aging is.
it makes you ugly.
it makes you weak.
it makes people rely on you.
it makes all the fun thing in this world seems so wrong.
it gives you responsibility.
it made you think twice.
it made you regret.
it made you choose...
i wished there's something in this world that could stop me from aging.
stop me from growing old.
stop me from being an adult.
i just wanna stay like this.
or younger.
FOREVERMORE.
i know it's impossible but i can dream can't i?
because the fact that i'm growing old every single day makes me feel so exhausted.
i'm turning twenty next year.
pretty young.
but what about ten years from that?
i can't imagine being thirty.
the responsibilities that i have committed to.
oh the horror!
'stay young at heart'
makes no sense at all.
what am i nagging this aging thingy so bad?
because i don't wanna grow old!!
time is so unfair.
it lets the good time flew so fast and the bad times goes on and on forever.
as if it would never end.
all the good times in this world.
we wished it would never stop.
but somehow...time is just too envious.
the smile and laughter,of joyful and happiness irritates time.
time made it go away as soon as possible.
but the sound of agony,pain,sorrow,sadness and tears falling on our faces.
are of all the melody in this world,becomes the sweetest song for the time.
and the people who feels happy all the time.
are the people who are in the greatest lost in this world.
because the longer the time you spent being happy.
the more the price you have to pay to the time...
what's worst than a debt with a loanshark,is a debt with the time.
time doesn't play by the rules.
time cheats.
time is a pain on the ass.
you'll never be ahead of time.
because time cheats.
it is absolutely absurd to play with the time.
time is like a terminal illness.
keeps you waiting and wondering,when will it take your life away.
because you are aware,that there's no such thing as a cure anymore.
there's nothing in this world that you could ever do to turn back time.
once you've made your decision.
there's no turning back.
even if turning back is part of the options.
it will only made you look coward.
so it's just the same as no turning back.
hmmm..
i wish i don't have to go through all this.
aging and stuff.
i wish my time would just stop right here right now.
i wish my life would be timeless...
Labels: Life is but a dream for the dead.
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azmie nini |
" I Am One Who Doesn't Know How To Exist With Others "
i just wish that someday,when the time comes for me to go.
i will be remembered.i will remain in the memory of at least someone.
because for me.
the entire existence of a person depends on the memories he left behind.
and not by the number of people who will remember him.
some people exist for a very short time but leaves a very significant mark in our hearts.
some people stays almost forever but in the end,forgotten like they never existed in the first place.
each and every one of us in this world will be remembered at least by one person once we're gone.
the idea of making memories of ourselves to others may vary.
some would do anything to be remembered by everyone.
some wants only the important people in their lives to remember them.
and there are some even wants nobody to remember them at all.
so where's your stand?
we live by the law to loved and beloved.
sometimes we only we feel like we existed when we are loved.
and we feel rejected as an opposite reaction.
i have always dreamed of being a carefree person.
and so far,my effort is nothing near to it.
born with this sensitivity is not easy.
everything in my surrounding affects me.
and it sucks to be like this.
sudden change in emotions is exhausting and sometimes unbearable.
and the worst part is,this emotion will not only affect your actions and perceptions.
but your health as well.
imagine throwing up blood for a change.
sigh~
well,
memories and memories.
the only thing that remains when a beautiful life is lost.
every smile,every laughter,every tears of joy and pain.
(this last paragraph supposed to be a poem,but i was lost within my wet leaky eyes.help me.end this poem..=)
Labels: If I could turn back time.
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azmie nini |
always have.always will..kdg sedih jg ni.cuz no matter what i do.it will always look bad.no matter what i'm trying to say.everything turns out to be bad.i don't know why.and i never felt this bad before.i never felt i was bad.but here..everything about me is bad.what i say.what i do.even the way i dress.everything's bad.why?because some people just like to think that they're too good.just so fucking hypocrite.sdah la bodoh.sombong pla tu.and before i went here.my thoughts were 'i will be in the hands of good people.there's nothing to worry about'.screw that thought!from what i saw,i am in the realms of low-life moronic good-for-nothing busy body kinds.not all though,mostly.even the worst of the people i've met is not like them.thank god i have friends whom i can rely on.whom understands.and best of all-NORMAL!living with more than half of absent-minded people who instead of studying and do normal stuff,eats away the flesh of their own people,could make even the toughest person cry.yeah..i did.and what i hate the most is their fucking hypocrisy.i dont wanna mention the examples.its too gross and hypocritical!if you wanna badmouth about some people who just dont give a fucking shit about your life,badmouth with pride.for the things that really should be a concern.if it is just blogpost and pictures you got,thats bullshit man.if you dont like what you see,dont look at it.fucking moron.mature people doing child's play.idiot.a person at a highest possible grade spreading rumor.so highschool.so mean girl movie.be a man FGS!the only guy i know spread rumor is Perez Hilton.and he is gay..so from my POV.guys who spread rumor=perez hilton=gay!its not like i hate guys.i only hate these kind of guys.doing house-to-house gossip.dont they have anything better to do?study,watch tv,play soccer,sleep..countless of guys stuff i can list but gossiping is not one of them.speaking as if i dont gossip ayy?i do.but i dont badmouth people.and i prefer gossiping about celebrities than to waste my saliva talking about some unknown jerks!hahaha..but i really wanna share about this one person that i would like to call 'jiks'.suits the personality i may say.hahaha..and my friends who read this,you know who it is.this jiks was very nice in a very questionable way on early days of me being here.very nice.offered help and stuff.i was like.oh indeed people here are nice.one day jiks asked me have i heard any rumors about jiks.i said no.then jiks told me in a sorta mengadu way that some unnie badmouthed that jiks likes to use newbies for jiks own good.it wasnt any of my concern so i was just being nice and ckp la relax ko bla bla bla.but then i heard this jiks badmouthed me saying i told some of my new friends to dont accept jiks help because in the end jiks wants sumtin for a change.jijik indeed.so dats all.nanti i sambung.mau teman dina jap.daa..
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azmie nini |
  AREN'T THEY ADORABLE?
in order of fondness.
1. KANGIN!!!
2. Hee Chul.
3. Han Kyung.
4. Kibum.
5. Eeteuk.
6. Sungmin.
7. Kyu Hyun.
8. Dong Hae.
9. Raewook.
10. Hyukjae.
11. Shiwon.
12. Yesung.
13. Shindong.
Labels: cik nini.
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azmie nini |
 hehehehehe..thanks line internet yang masih tersambung.
i gotta be extremely fast because it may suddenly disappear ;p
i wanna share this very funny story.
although i sucked in arabic.
among my friends i spoke the least.
and always let them speak for me.
i understand it pretty well.(I guess?)
at least,it's better to understand than to speak.hehehe..
it was the day of my cooking duty.
so because i don't wanna go overbudget this month.
i decided to cook only eggs.
telur masak merah la tapi.
i went to the new kedai runcit next to the veggie stall.
i asked the owner for eggs la kan.
i said "aiza bid.emm..khamsin" (bagi sa telur)
and he replied "khamsin?"
i confidently nodded "aw"
he said "meshy.abiad?"(white?)
again me "aw"
so he took a plastic bag and pointed at a tray of eggs and said.
"da thalatin".
i was like "oh..aiwa"
and then i thought to myself "wait a sec.thalatin?is 30!!"
i freaked out so i told him to wait.
and ran outside for ezat and asked her
"zat,dua puluh apa dalam arab?"
"isyrin"
i went inside again and told the owner i wanted only twenty eggs.
earlier i asked for fifty.
no wonder he was shocked.
and he smiled sacrastically when he handed me the eggs.
wth..
it's been a year since i'm here.
and i'm still sucked in numbers.
usually it took me almost ten minutes to figure out numbers more than twenty.
apa lagi kalau sampai hundreds or thousands.
hahahahaha..palui betul.
another story.
days ago i went out with ezat,pit and pakok to akher saa(restaurant).
at first we wanted to eat at kfc but it was on full house.
so we went to akher saa instead.
nak dijadikan cerita.
due to my excessive 'interest' towards Kangin.
he became my wallpaper for now.
at least sampai la aku bosan dengan gambar tu.hehehe..
and there was these two egyptians who we're fascinated with me & ezat.
just for ordering shistawook(ayam masak sumtin2 la tapi sedap & mahal).
i was busy surfing the net with my phone and those idiots kept on staring on my phone screen as well.
stupid busy bodies.
so i closed my browser and then Kangin's picture appeared.
then i heard those clowns thought he was my boyfriend.
and made they thought i was chinese cuz i heard the word 'sin'.
stupid idiots.hahahahahaha!
i think it's because Kangin's picture on my wallpaper looks as if i really snapped it.
funny.
Kangin?my boyfriend?bangga jugak.hehehehehe ~..~
okay la.
that's all.
thank you.
p/s : gambar Kangin yang aku letak bersama post ini bukan gambar wallpaper aku.hehehehe..=D
Labels: cik nini., Dare to be me?
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azmie nini |
i'm back!~
well,at least for a few hours.haha!
i'm having a blast on this eid break.(NOT)
haha..i guess the best thing about holiday is i get enough sleep.
i mean,i can sleep as early as possible.
without any hesitation.
away from books for a while.(as if i'm close to them before)
i don't want to talk anything about eid.
because for me,eid this year sucks!
both of my eids!!
i was sick on the first four days of eid fitri.
and this eid adha?just plain boring.
what have i been doing lately?
hmm..instead of sleeping and indulging.
lots and lots of Super Junior-watching.haha!
i guess what i've been up was stated clearly in my tweets.
if you know what i mean ;)
i miss my baby so much though.
i wonder what's he been up to.
i thought i could distract myself from him with the help of my Kangin-oppa.
but it didn't work!
i just have to endure few months without him
it's like Bella surviving without Edward.
good for her,she had Jacob with her all the time.
me?
no one.
i wanna play bowling so bad.
throwing and knocking down some pins would definitely do something to me.
i need to release this anger,frustration and sadness immediately.
all this emotions...
its because of the exams.
hmm...crap!
oh god...
i think i'm gonna shop like a moron tomorrow.oh god!!
honestly,i really don't have anything to say.
i'm so out of words.
hahahahaha..(i always say that and then i'll continue some more)
i had the best dream last night.
hahahahahahahaha >_<>
Labels: Fallen Angel
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azmie nini |
i miss home so bad.
please...
can i go home this february?
please...
i'll do whatever you want me to do.
but please...
let me go home for a little while.
I REALLY WANNA GO HOME.
i miss you guys.
i miss abah & mummy.
i miss ayie.
i miss kak ab,abang,cencen and kikim.
please abah,mummy...
let me go home this winter.
i'm down on bended knee..kneeling for this.
please...let me go home...
i love you guys so much.
i miss you guys a lot.
please...please...please
i wanna go home.
Labels: Fallen Angel
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azmie nini |
sometimes,it's so hard to agree with the fact that everything changes with time.
seriously,it's hard.
time is like a manifestation that devours everything on it's path.
the thing i hate the most about time is it ages you.
it makes you older.
it consumes the youth you've been trying to subside.
the thing about aging is.
it makes you ugly.
it makes you weak.
it makes people rely on you.
it makes all the fun thing in this world seems so wrong.
it gives you responsibility.
it made you think twice.
it made you regret.
it made you choose...
i wished there's something in this world that could stop me from aging.
stop me from growing old.
stop me from being an adult.
i just wanna stay like this.
or younger.
FOREVERMORE.
i know it's impossible but i can dream can't i?
because the fact that i'm growing old every single day makes me feel so exhausted.
i'm turning twenty next year.
pretty young.
but what about ten years from that?
i can't imagine being thirty.
the responsibilities that i have committed to.
oh the horror!
'stay young at heart'
makes no sense at all.
what am i nagging this aging thingy so bad?
because i don't wanna grow old!!
time is so unfair.
it lets the good time flew so fast and the bad times goes on and on forever.
as if it would never end.
all the good times in this world.
we wished it would never stop.
but somehow...time is just too envious.
the smile and laughter,of joyful and happiness irritates time.
time made it go away as soon as possible.
but the sound of agony,pain,sorrow,sadness and tears falling on our faces.
are of all the melody in this world,becomes the sweetest song for the time.
and the people who feels happy all the time.
are the people who are in the greatest lost in this world.
because the longer the time you spent being happy.
the more the price you have to pay to the time...
what's worst than a debt with a loanshark,is a debt with the time.
time doesn't play by the rules.
time cheats.
time is a pain on the ass.
you'll never be ahead of time.
because time cheats.
it is absolutely absurd to play with the time.
time is like a terminal illness.
keeps you waiting and wondering,when will it take your life away.
because you are aware,that there's no such thing as a cure anymore.
there's nothing in this world that you could ever do to turn back time.
once you've made your decision.
there's no turning back.
even if turning back is part of the options.
it will only made you look coward.
so it's just the same as no turning back.
hmmm..
i wish i don't have to go through all this.
aging and stuff.
i wish my time would just stop right here right now.
i wish my life would be timeless...
Labels: Life is but a dream for the dead.
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azmie nini |
" I Am One Who Doesn't Know How To Exist With Others "
i just wish that someday,when the time comes for me to go.
i will be remembered.i will remain in the memory of at least someone.
because for me.
the entire existence of a person depends on the memories he left behind.
and not by the number of people who will remember him.
some people exist for a very short time but leaves a very significant mark in our hearts.
some people stays almost forever but in the end,forgotten like they never existed in the first place.
each and every one of us in this world will be remembered at least by one person once we're gone.
the idea of making memories of ourselves to others may vary.
some would do anything to be remembered by everyone.
some wants only the important people in their lives to remember them.
and there are some even wants nobody to remember them at all.
so where's your stand?
we live by the law to loved and beloved.
sometimes we only we feel like we existed when we are loved.
and we feel rejected as an opposite reaction.
i have always dreamed of being a carefree person.
and so far,my effort is nothing near to it.
born with this sensitivity is not easy.
everything in my surrounding affects me.
and it sucks to be like this.
sudden change in emotions is exhausting and sometimes unbearable.
and the worst part is,this emotion will not only affect your actions and perceptions.
but your health as well.
imagine throwing up blood for a change.
sigh~
well,
memories and memories.
the only thing that remains when a beautiful life is lost.
every smile,every laughter,every tears of joy and pain.
(this last paragraph supposed to be a poem,but i was lost within my wet leaky eyes.help me.end this poem..=)
Labels: If I could turn back time.
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azmie nini |
always have.always will..kdg sedih jg ni.cuz no matter what i do.it will always look bad.no matter what i'm trying to say.everything turns out to be bad.i don't know why.and i never felt this bad before.i never felt i was bad.but here..everything about me is bad.what i say.what i do.even the way i dress.everything's bad.why?because some people just like to think that they're too good.just so fucking hypocrite.sdah la bodoh.sombong pla tu.and before i went here.my thoughts were 'i will be in the hands of good people.there's nothing to worry about'.screw that thought!from what i saw,i am in the realms of low-life moronic good-for-nothing busy body kinds.not all though,mostly.even the worst of the people i've met is not like them.thank god i have friends whom i can rely on.whom understands.and best of all-NORMAL!living with more than half of absent-minded people who instead of studying and do normal stuff,eats away the flesh of their own people,could make even the toughest person cry.yeah..i did.and what i hate the most is their fucking hypocrisy.i dont wanna mention the examples.its too gross and hypocritical!if you wanna badmouth about some people who just dont give a fucking shit about your life,badmouth with pride.for the things that really should be a concern.if it is just blogpost and pictures you got,thats bullshit man.if you dont like what you see,dont look at it.fucking moron.mature people doing child's play.idiot.a person at a highest possible grade spreading rumor.so highschool.so mean girl movie.be a man FGS!the only guy i know spread rumor is Perez Hilton.and he is gay..so from my POV.guys who spread rumor=perez hilton=gay!its not like i hate guys.i only hate these kind of guys.doing house-to-house gossip.dont they have anything better to do?study,watch tv,play soccer,sleep..countless of guys stuff i can list but gossiping is not one of them.speaking as if i dont gossip ayy?i do.but i dont badmouth people.and i prefer gossiping about celebrities than to waste my saliva talking about some unknown jerks!hahaha..but i really wanna share about this one person that i would like to call 'jiks'.suits the personality i may say.hahaha..and my friends who read this,you know who it is.this jiks was very nice in a very questionable way on early days of me being here.very nice.offered help and stuff.i was like.oh indeed people here are nice.one day jiks asked me have i heard any rumors about jiks.i said no.then jiks told me in a sorta mengadu way that some unnie badmouthed that jiks likes to use newbies for jiks own good.it wasnt any of my concern so i was just being nice and ckp la relax ko bla bla bla.but then i heard this jiks badmouthed me saying i told some of my new friends to dont accept jiks help because in the end jiks wants sumtin for a change.jijik indeed.so dats all.nanti i sambung.mau teman dina jap.daa..
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azmie nini |
AREN'T THEY ADORABLE?
in order of fondness.
1. KANGIN!!!
2. Hee Chul.
3. Han Kyung.
4. Kibum.
5. Eeteuk.
6. Sungmin.
7. Kyu Hyun.
8. Dong Hae.
9. Raewook.
10. Hyukjae.
11. Shiwon.
12. Yesung.
13. Shindong.
Labels: cik nini.
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azmie nini |
hehehehehe..thanks line internet yang masih tersambung.
i gotta be extremely fast because it may suddenly disappear ;p
i wanna share this very funny story.
although i sucked in arabic.
among my friends i spoke the least.
and always let them speak for me.
i understand it pretty well.(I guess?)
at least,it's better to understand than to speak.hehehe..
it was the day of my cooking duty.
so because i don't wanna go overbudget this month.
i decided to cook only eggs.
telur masak merah la tapi.
i went to the new kedai runcit next to the veggie stall.
i asked the owner for eggs la kan.
i said "aiza bid.emm..khamsin" (bagi sa telur)
and he replied "khamsin?"
i confidently nodded "aw"
he said "meshy.abiad?"(white?)
again me "aw"
so he took a plastic bag and pointed at a tray of eggs and said.
"da thalatin".
i was like "oh..aiwa"
and then i thought to myself "wait a sec.thalatin?is 30!!"
i freaked out so i told him to wait.
and ran outside for ezat and asked her
"zat,dua puluh apa dalam arab?"
"isyrin"
i went inside again and told the owner i wanted only twenty eggs.
earlier i asked for fifty.
no wonder he was shocked.
and he smiled sacrastically when he handed me the eggs.
wth..
it's been a year since i'm here.
and i'm still sucked in numbers.
usually it took me almost ten minutes to figure out numbers more than twenty.
apa lagi kalau sampai hundreds or thousands.
hahahahaha..palui betul.
another story.
days ago i went out with ezat,pit and pakok to akher saa(restaurant).
at first we wanted to eat at kfc but it was on full house.
so we went to akher saa instead.
nak dijadikan cerita.
due to my excessive 'interest' towards Kangin.
he became my wallpaper for now.
at least sampai la aku bosan dengan gambar tu.hehehe..
and there was these two egyptians who we're fascinated with me & ezat.
just for ordering shistawook(ayam masak sumtin2 la tapi sedap & mahal).
i was busy surfing the net with my phone and those idiots kept on staring on my phone screen as well.
stupid busy bodies.
so i closed my browser and then Kangin's picture appeared.
then i heard those clowns thought he was my boyfriend.
and made they thought i was chinese cuz i heard the word 'sin'.
stupid idiots.hahahahahaha!
i think it's because Kangin's picture on my wallpaper looks as if i really snapped it.
funny.
Kangin?my boyfriend?bangga jugak.hehehehehe ~..~
okay la.
that's all.
thank you.
p/s : gambar Kangin yang aku letak bersama post ini bukan gambar wallpaper aku.hehehehe..=D
Labels: cik nini., Dare to be me?
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azmie nini |
i'm back!~
well,at least for a few hours.haha!
i'm having a blast on this eid break.(NOT)
haha..i guess the best thing about holiday is i get enough sleep.
i mean,i can sleep as early as possible.
without any hesitation.
away from books for a while.(as if i'm close to them before)
i don't want to talk anything about eid.
because for me,eid this year sucks!
both of my eids!!
i was sick on the first four days of eid fitri.
and this eid adha?just plain boring.
what have i been doing lately?
hmm..instead of sleeping and indulging.
lots and lots of Super Junior-watching.haha!
i guess what i've been up was stated clearly in my tweets.
if you know what i mean ;)
i miss my baby so much though.
i wonder what's he been up to.
i thought i could distract myself from him with the help of my Kangin-oppa.
but it didn't work!
i just have to endure few months without him
it's like Bella surviving without Edward.
good for her,she had Jacob with her all the time.
me?
no one.
i wanna play bowling so bad.
throwing and knocking down some pins would definitely do something to me.
i need to release this anger,frustration and sadness immediately.
all this emotions...
its because of the exams.
hmm...crap!
oh god...
i think i'm gonna shop like a moron tomorrow.oh god!!
honestly,i really don't have anything to say.
i'm so out of words.
hahahahaha..(i always say that and then i'll continue some more)
i had the best dream last night.
hahahahahahahaha >_<>
Labels: Fallen Angel
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 N.E.V.S is the name.
Owned by M.A.J.A.
Borned February 11th,1990.
I'm a die-hard-fan of Avenged Sevenfold & Johnny Depp.
Emo,Cynical,Sarcastic & Hyper-Sensitive.
I'm a rebel,I'm not a saint.
 This is my baby! ♥
 This is LOVE
Sweethearts Together.
Vaizurazmie ♥ Azmievo.
Facebook : Nini Evo Vaizura Sazali
Myspace : www.myspace.com/ninievovaizura
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Javanese+Dusun.
February 11,1990.
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please abah and mummy :'(
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